What do I do now? A year ago in the month of November I experienced an ever so familiar feeling.
The feeling of being cheated on. I just didn't know what to do at that point.
Now, it happened again after we had sorted things out during the month of December.
Everything between us was going smoothly after December..well at least for 2 months.
Now it's March. She cheated on me on March 6th and I recently found out through her mother which was on March 11th.
Yet....why...did I choose to stay? I don't have an answer for it. I keep telling myself that I love her. But the pain and doubt just overwhelm me.
My personality supposedly had changed and became sour in my father's perspective. I just don't know what to do...
I really feel like offing myself and actually being successful this time around...especially since i didn't succeed last time.
I'm stupid. I want my life to be better. I threw so many important things in my life away. From skateboarding to playing my music in front of complete strangers. I am now nothing. I'm no one.
All my days are is stay home and hope to God i have some communication with her, go to work, eat, sleep watch some shows i follow on weekly. That's my life. It's been down graded to the point of no return.
I'm just pathetic. She's supposedly going to see me. She's going to be coming out from the east coast since she moved and we decided to keep our relationship even though it's long distant. It's her birthday tomorrow. She's supposedly going to be here Tuesday since i bought the ticket. But i'm not sure if her being here would make our relationship better..especially since she's just going to just get up and run away from her home.

i just really don't know what to do.....